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The Heart of Jesus by Jill Austin

This is AMAZING and had to share it – gave me chills. From Jill Austin’s Dancing with Destiny:

One time when I was in prayer, the Lord gave me much deeper revelation and understanding of this. It was an amazing visitation that happened to me during one of my own Master Potter conferences.

I found myself moving at breakneck speed through a realm of eternity in heaven. It was smoky all around me, like swirling glory. As I looked below, I could see glimpses of a sea of glass and hear sounds of worship.

In front of me, huge gates opened, and I went through them. I was astounded as I found myself close up against the chest of Jesus. I could feel His robe underneath my face; it felt like linen. I could hear His gigantic heart beating and beating. Then I could feel the arms of the Lord around me, holding me and loving me. I felt so secure and so protected. There was no other place anywhere in the world that I wanted to be more than there–leaning on my Beloved, snuggled up against His chest, feeling His arms around me and hearing His heart.

It seemed as if the chamber was made of flesh–it felt very vulnerable–and I could feel the loud pounding of eternity. Then I realized that I was hearing the cries of the oppressed and broken and lost as they surrounded me. I could also hear Him weeping. This great Intercessor was weeping for the lost. His heart was like a wall and inscribed on it were the names of every single human being on earth. He was crying out for each one of these names. Each one. If I looked at a name, his or her face appeared and I had a glimpse into that person’s life. It was like experiencing heaven’s wailing wall.

I could feel as well as hear the people in this wall crying out: “Is there a God? Is He really there? Do You feel my pain?” In the enormous chamber of His heart, I could hear all of humanity, every name, every face and every circumstance. I could hear the sounds of the abused and the broken: “is there really a God?” I could also hear the prayers of the intercessors on earth and cries of the lost. Then it was as if, underneath, I could hear the sound of the blood of the martyrs, “How long, O Lord? How long, O Lord?”

The response of His great pain for each suffering person was like a heart attack.

Gradually I realized that I could hear music and other sounds of heaven. I remember the words Holy is the Lamb. All of the voices and instruments were mingled, as if an enormous orchestra and choir were assembled in the weeping heart of the Lord. It made a great crescendo–the anguish of the people and the music of heaven in the midst of His great intercession.

Then I felt as if the Lord was speaking to me. The key to apostolic authority is love. If people want to move in signs and wonders and miracles, if they want to see heaven breaking in to take whole territories, then they need to discover My heart and My compassion. Then I will give them the power to set the captive free and the anointing to see the sick healed and the dead raised.

In the distance I could see other chambers, like other rooms in heaven. His heart was like heaven itself with many different dimensions. I could see the throne ahead but my attention was given to His words: If people want to move in My power and My presence, they need to have My love and My heart.

Jill Austin, an award-winning potter, is the founder of Master Potter Ministries and a leading prophetic voice in the Church. She travels nationally and internationally as a popular speaker at charismatic and prophetic conferences.

I haven’t finished the book yet but it’s amazing so far – she’s a really anointed author in my opinion.

Chi Alpha Winter Conference Notes

Friday, 1-15-10 Winston Bui

Heb 11:21 Jacob leaning on his staff
Staff – carved designs on for specific events to be remembered; OT, staff represents your life

Ex. 3 Moses
Ex. 4:2 Moses, lay down your life (staff)
What’s in your hand?
Lay down your life.

1 Sam. 17:40 David & Goliath
Ps. 23:4 Your rod and your staff comfort me


1-16-10 AM Char Blair
BE HONEST

Who will take your trash?
-Remove the mask and reveal what’s underneath –> to see the real you

1. Be honest with God about what or whom you worship.
Ps. 115:8

2. Be honest with yourself about your weakness(es)
– In all of your realness, be RIGHT.
– You are NOT above the rules.
* Identify with the sick only long enough to get well.
– The very thing that makes me vulnerable to sin is the same thing that gets God to “slows down” and see in order to save you.
2 Cor. 12:7-10 Christ’s strength moving in on my weakness
– He’d rather have you messy than not at all.

3. Be honest with others about who and where you are
– Rule of truth – no one has the right to tell someone else “the truth” until they have spent time, energy, and focus to learn the truth about themselves.
– The power of being in touch with your weakness
–> we all struggle and need a Savior
–> in society, health = absence of pain
–> in Kingdom of God, everything’s different – opposite – painful process toward health


1-16-10 PM Winston Bui
PRAISE
Is. 38:18
– Hezekiah doesn’t want to die.
–> Hezekiah was willing to praise God, so God added 15 more years to his life

2 Chron. 20 Jehosaphat – as people began to sing praises to their God, …
– He will fight your battle b/c battle is His
– Praise will make God fight your battle

Acts 15:25 Paul & Silas – prison praise
– Death is gateway into presence of God


1-17-10 AM Char Blair
BE FLEXIBLE
-Life doesn’t turn out the way you think it will
Lk. 9:57-62 If you follow me, I am homeless
– Terrain is uncertain – requires all strength
– Flexibility – having ability to bend w/o breaking
Wannabe disciples:
1. Over eager –> ask before being asked to follow
2. Wait a year first
3. Bid farewell to family first
– Can’t plow a straight line if you keep looking back
– Following Christ takes our undivided attention – not on again, off again relationship
* In every Christian’s heart, there’s a cross and a throne
– You can bend or be bent
– e.g. Palm Tree
– Our job is to go deep; God’s job is to go wide.
– Palm tree is extremely flexible – cut it but can’t kill it

– God doesn’t need me but He wants me involved.
– Sitting at His feet –> true satisfaction –> being content with my portion
– Being a servant is hardest and most fulfilling job in my life
– One person can change the season in your life.
– When you set aside dreams and visions to serve someone else, your dreams come true too.
– Faithfulness –> God has called me to be faithful – Mother Teresa
– In mundane moments, miracles can happen.
– Death of my desires brings about His desires.
–> Never settle for less than His desires.
–> Reversible death vs. Irreversible death – I’m really good at giving CPR to my flesh
– What is your Italy?

Jn 12:25 Lose your life


SHAKE THAT WELL


1-18-10 AM Char Blair
WHAT WILL YOU DO WITH THE BRIDE?
Jer. 31:3 Everlasting love
The gift is always greater than the individual

Spiritual abuse:
– God’s love and favor depend on my behavior
– God’s too big to care about me
– A strong faith will keep me from pain

Having a hard time with church –> separated from Bride
– Must be committed to the Bride
– The higher the commitment, the lower the attraction
– I love the Bride b/c Christ loves her

Ez. 16:8-14
The Bride keeps me accountable
Accountability = offering up info before it’s required of you
– We need to be pushed. There will be things in your life that you’ll never do unless you are pushed.
– Bride makes me a better person – give and take
– Feed others while being fed
– Helps make mature believers
– Guarding my heart while opening my arms
– When people get together, God shows up.

Letting Go

I think it’s amazing how caught up we can get on the performance aspect of worship when it’s not about anyone else but Him. There are obviously ways to facilitate a great worship set but that’s not the point. God is the audience of One we worship – not performing for a group of people. Ultimately, He is the One that we ask, “Did You like that?” He specifically told me, “Wait a sec, who is the One you are worshiping?” when I was asking people for feedback on worship. It’s always important to realize that God is the One who’s opinion matters the most. Feedback is always appreciated but in the end, God is the One who makes everything the way it needs to be, including my worship. He is the One forming me into the person He’s called me to be – every experience, every thought, every conversation, etc. He is molding and shaping me because I am definitely not perfect YET.

Lord Jesus
I let go of all of my wants and needs
You are what I want and need more than anything else
I just want to please Your heart
Bring a smile to Your face
Love You for You