Inside the Wong Mind

Letting Go

I think it’s amazing how caught up we can get on the performance aspect of worship when it’s not about anyone else but Him. There are obviously ways to facilitate a great worship set but that’s not the point. God is the audience of One we worship – not performing for a group of people. Ultimately, He is the One that we ask, “Did You like that?” He specifically told me, “Wait a sec, who is the One you are worshiping?” when I was asking people for feedback on worship. It’s always important to realize that God is the One who’s opinion matters the most. Feedback is always appreciated but in the end, God is the One who makes everything the way it needs to be, including my worship. He is the One forming me into the person He’s called me to be – every experience, every thought, every conversation, etc. He is molding and shaping me because I am definitely not perfect YET.

Lord Jesus
I let go of all of my wants and needs
You are what I want and need more than anything else
I just want to please Your heart
Bring a smile to Your face
Love You for You

November 15, 2009 by Kim Davis Life Normal Christian Life

DCF Fall Retreat 2009

So I’m back from retreat exhausted but pleasantly surprised that I’m peaceful despite the looming midterm on Tuesday afternoon. I can’t believe how much God can do in 1.5 days. He truly is faithful and meets us where we’re at. I made new friends this week and got closer to older friends. God has a way of transforming lives at retreats.

First off. I left later than everyone else because I was picking up some newcomers that didn’t have rides but I had to leave 2 hours later. I was not happy at first but then I got to go home and take a nap, so it worked out. I felt the enemy trying to ruin my retreat from the very start. When we arrived, all of the dorm beds were taken so I had to drive down the hill to the cabins but then I liked the cabins better because it smelled weird in the dorms.

God spoke to me during Saturday night worship about giving it all, which included my false humility. I try to let others lead and be the front person, but God has called me to be a leader this school year – to step up and take that leadership position He has for me. This can be really unsettling and/or really scary because I don’t always feel qualified to step up, but God is calling me higher. He is wanting to put me on display and I can’t shy away from the light.

Through Jeremy Anderson’s message on Saturday night, I was encouraged to step out more in evangelism – talking about Him in my everyday conversation. More fears and doubts were being handed over to God. I got to pray with some other people and I definitely felt God’s presence working.

The testimonies from this week are so amazing, so God. I’m so grateful to God for all He’s done and all He’s doing. I got to lead worship with Zach this morning it was good. We didn’t have a lot of practice time, but God’s presence was there because people were hungry and seeking after His presence.